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My name starts with F and ends with N . It sounds highly dangerous to have someone that names with F
because shes a violent monster truck that will attack any meanies she sees in streets or roads .
Three words; Peach Tea, Orange and Ekar's 4 legged spider.
-PARAMORE CONCERT 07 March 2010
-still have yet to meet Russell Peters.
-driving license.
-small lappy!
the rest is to be unveiled.
ZULKARNAIN ISMAIL.
bestfriend and boyfriend.
Since 30 august 2007.
its 6 in the morning. i only slept for 2 hours and now i cant sleep. i hate it when i think. because right now im haunted by the past. i wonder why its stuck to me so badly.
all you did was deepen the scar i already had. its haunting me. everytime i think about it, it makes me hate you even more. it makes me want to cry on your lap.
i really want to erase my memory because of you.
how do i even say this? you know i'll run to you anytime any day. and if i leave, what would you do?
i cant tell you how mad i am at you for doing what you did. because when i think about it, its been 4 months over.
there's even a bigger NO meaning to it, if i talk about it, right?
but can you? stop being a jerk? and remove everything you know about that person? and settle it once and for all.
for my sake.
do you how hard it was to trust you again? i trusted you before, and you did that. i trusted you again. and the worst scenario happened.
you do know, that i know you told me lies on that day right?
again, how do i even say this? i trust you. with all my heart. but it hurts to think about it. but what can i do? what can you do?
i want to stop as much as you do. i really do.
are you going to get mad when you read this? im guessing yes. but dont just shrug "ah whatever" to this post and stay mad at me. THINK about it. if everything else you say whatever or ignore. let this be the only thing you CANT say to.
i have no idea if i made my point in this post. i just have to let this out. because its at the point where this issue entered my dreams and turn them into nightmares. i mean really. its an awful feeling.
