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My name starts with F and ends with N . It sounds highly dangerous to have someone that names with F
because shes a violent monster truck that will attack any meanies she sees in streets or roads .
Three words; Peach Tea, Orange and Ekar's 4 legged spider.
-PARAMORE CONCERT 07 March 2010
-still have yet to meet Russell Peters.
-driving license.
-small lappy!
the rest is to be unveiled.
ZULKARNAIN ISMAIL.
bestfriend and boyfriend.
Since 30 august 2007.
its 6 in the morning. i only slept for 2 hours and now i cant sleep. i hate it when i think. because right now im haunted by the past. i wonder why its stuck to me so badly.
all you did was deepen the scar i already had. its haunting me. everytime i think about it, it makes me hate you even more. it makes me want to cry on your lap.
i really want to erase my memory because of you.
how do i even say this? you know i'll run to you anytime any day. and if i leave, what would you do?
i cant tell you how mad i am at you for doing what you did. because when i think about it, its been 4 months over.
there's even a bigger NO meaning to it, if i talk about it, right?
but can you? stop being a jerk? and remove everything you know about that person? and settle it once and for all.
for my sake.
do you how hard it was to trust you again? i trusted you before, and you did that. i trusted you again. and the worst scenario happened.
you do know, that i know you told me lies on that day right?
again, how do i even say this? i trust you. with all my heart. but it hurts to think about it. but what can i do? what can you do?
i want to stop as much as you do. i really do.
are you going to get mad when you read this? im guessing yes. but dont just shrug "ah whatever" to this post and stay mad at me. THINK about it. if everything else you say whatever or ignore. let this be the only thing you CANT say to.
i have no idea if i made my point in this post. i just have to let this out. because its at the point where this issue entered my dreams and turn them into nightmares. i mean really. its an awful feeling.
im wondering why im on hiatus for a very very long time.. still wondering..
gah.. im tired of competing with you. somehow, i know you know you're winning. is that why you keep bugging?
i have no idea the kind of person you are.
still sick here. my nose keep running. and my throat is sore. well, being so, i still eat the marvelous Ben and Jerrys FREE CONE DAY. would i ever miss it? Zyk forgot to bring her canon. but ah oh wells, seems like the common thing people have is to have photos on their blog
DUH how else you want to tell your story kan? kay im out!
kinda like this photo of Ekar. so i'll put this photo first =D
okay, proceeding...
!PARAMORE CONCERTWASTHE BOMB!
ekar's lumix is waahhhhhhhh!
felt too fast for the fun to end. but i know Hayley is tired now =D YEAY! Hayley said singapore was the loudest among all the other countries she's performed for!! its the best laaaahh!!!
okay sorrie to Ekar and Milo for choosing the seating instead of the standing pen. grr.. next concert kaaayyyy!
i'll only put a few here most of you have facebook kan? so go see!! BUT GOSH! my throat is sooooreee! but its worth the scream =D
had a good chat with Ariff just now. he din recognise my voice until i said Ariffin. hahahahhaha. rabak! luper kawan!
wokaays. i havent been updating. and im still wondering why. maybe i'll be on hiatus.
but i love to update to let Boyfriend read it. haha i have 1 daily reader. but he knows everything that goes on. and he still reads my blog. haha cute larrrr!
okay. i dunno what i'll be doing now but i'll see you around the corner.
alright, long break from blogging. alot of things happened. well yeah. i dont think anyone reads my blog anymore. *crik crik* so im updating today because i feel like it.
parents found out that i havent been attending classes. damn Liang.
something else happened earlier today. i so dont wanna talk about it. but gosh. you are such a thickheaded grrr!
so what else? i got a sudden outbreak of ulcers and pimples. i think its the seaweed packets i've been eating with Ju. kay i mean seaweed. i dont eat the packets. dammit.
well what to do. its not like they care they're making a mess of my face and mouth. GAH.
can i not go school till April? i wish schools dont have nosy teachers. kay lah. bye.
with all these out of sorts feelings. i have to constantly think of how to feel. no darling, im not paranoid. just feeling that somethings not in place. i really just want you to make me feel all better again. i know you can. only you can. and you know it.
